Carol, I love you so, so very much and miss you even more. It is so, so difficult to cope without you. We have had 42 years of happiness, togetherness and love, and that is in excess of 15,000 days together and I mean together since we did everything together. We did have 14 years until 2004 when we were joined by Meisha and Fudge, two wonderful companions and demanding "mates", but also a very exciting period of our lives. However, we planned everything together, our immediate plans, our holidays, our homes and and our future which we assumed would take us both happily together beyond July 2011 - sadly not. You were my lover, my best mate, my wife, my companion, my shoulder to cry on, my support, my "adviser" and better half by far. At least we had almost 15 years of retirement together to enjoy our freedom, our love for one another, even build our own house. I regard myself as being one of the luckiest guys alive to have met you and been with you for the 40+ years, years when we have been able to enjoy life together so, so very much. Not so lucky now to have lost you, as I have. The house is so empty, my soul is empty, my life a shell of what it was and I sometimes find myself just wondering about the present and the future - how to cope without you? All I have are my wonderful memories, photographs and thoughts. To be able to drive forward I have to say that "life must go on" and consequently my efforts are being directed into raising funds, in your name, to support more research into breast, secondary breast and ovarian cancer in the hope that others can avoid what you, my angel, have suffered. I am determined that you will not have died in vain and have formed the Carol Harrison Cancer Research Charitable Trust to raise funds for more cancer research. However, doing things such as this cannot replace you and what I have lost. I miss you so, so very much and will love you to the day I die. My Angel, my Lover and my Best Mate. I love you and miss you so, so very much and always will. David xxxxx